Why tarot?

Wow, I have really been off the tarot wagon this year! I think I’m making another comeback though. I see a lot of people asking how other people use tarot. It’s not a super common question but it did come up a couple days ago. I figured it would be nice to list it all out.

I see a lot of people asking how other people use tarot. It’s not a super common question but it did come up a couple days ago. I figured it would be nice to list it all out. As you’ll see, it’s not a spiritual or religious thing for me but I still have so many uses for tarot.

My Uses

Tarot as a Thinking Tool

This is how I usually use the tarot. I don’t know if “thinking tool” is the best name but it’s what I’ve been using for awhile. I like doing non-divinatory spreads, with positions that ask probing questions. If the questions allow me to muse over something and spark ideas, then that’s the spread for me. I also just like doing some freeform kind of stuff to let the thoughts flow.

Tarot for Art Appreciation

I love art. I love it so fucking hard. Having a tarot deck is like owning a tiny, portable gallery. If I could get paid to look at art all day I’d be the happiest person ever.

Tarot for Learning Random Cool Shit

You’re not going to be able to do this with every card, and certainly not every deck but if you take the time to study a deck, you can discover all sorts of stuff.

A really exciting example of this is the 8 of Wands from the Dust II Onyx deck. Check out what I mean on the artists’ IG right here.

Tarot for Symbology

I am fascinated with symbology. It’s fun seeing how each deck’s artist interprets a card. I think that looking at a lot of different decks and artists can help you deepen your understanding of tarot.

Tarot for Divination

I don’t believe in divination but I will do those sorts of spreads if I’m bored or having fun with friends. That’s right, pearl-clutchers, I have fun with my decks! I don’t take these kinds of readings seriously but when a friend gets something out of it, that’s awesome.

Tarot for Meditation

This is a really popular way to use tarot. Here’s a post I made on one of my meditations. I don’t do it often but it’s a totally legit and awesome practice.

Tarot for Writing

I don’t write very much anymore but sometimes it’s fun to use tarot to brainstorm with. Do a Google search to find a lot of different helpful resources.

Tarot for Spells

This is another thing I don’t do very often because I’m lazy af. But it’s such a cool and interesting way of doing spells. Tarot Spells by Janina Ranee is pretty great and the Modern Spellcaster’s deck is great!

Card of the Day

I go through periods where I’ll do a card of the day for a couple weeks in a row. Then I’ll not do it for a long time. Doing a card a day has multiple uses but I like to pick my own card and think about it throughout the day. You can try to match the card to things (events or otherwise) in the day. You can also use it as a focus for your mood or personality but I feel that’s more spell-like and works great with oracle cards.

Other Uses

Tarot for Shadow Work

Shadow work is a pretty huge for tarot users, it seems. It’s not in my list but I think it might be pretty similar to some of the other tarot things I do.

Tarot for Gaming

I’m interested in using tarot for games but haven’t really put the effort into it yet. Here’s a discussion about using tarot for games. I’ve been particularly interested in this game here but have had a hard time figuring it out.

If there are more uses I can’t think of them at the moment! If there’s something you think is missing let me know. And do let me know what you use tarot for. It would be interesting to see!


Deck Review: Slow Holler

I got this deck around Christmas last year and I’ve put off this review long enough. It’s taken me this long because I haven’t been able to find the right words for what this deck does to me. It finally came to me the other day when I saw someone post it on Reddit: “I have such a very strange, unexplainable reaction to it. It feels like a diary that I don’t want anybody else to know I have.”

*edit* I forgot to mention! When I got my deck the last 7 cards of the cups suit were missing. I contact someone through their website and they got back to me quickly and got the cards in the mail right away. If you have any problems with missing cards, let them know!

Initial Impression

I was quite smitten when I flipped through this deck the first time. It’s got a unique vibe. It’s got presence, a personality. If it was an element it would be earth.


It came wrapped with the book in a lovely handkerchief that matches the deck. There was a red piece of yarn tied around it which I’ve since misplaced. The material is kind of rough (to me). I’m sure it would soften up with a wash or two but I wouldn’t want the lovely print to wear off.



nice easy way to contain the deck. really wrinkles the fabric though



It shuffles very well but it’s so thin it’s sad. It’s probably about as thin as the Tarot of the Vampyres, but it’s less springy/more bendy. I didn’t think it was possible to be shittier than the Vampyre deck but they somehow managed. Congratulations 😦

My deck took on a bit of a curve after just a week or two of use. I think the price for the deck is too high for the card quality. If the price was lower I’d pick up a backup deck.




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I love the art! None of it is really something I’d hang on my wall. It’s not that kind of art. But it’s very earthy, sometimes grungy. It says something. This is a collaboration deck involving queers and or southerners, which makes it extra special with different art styles. But the color palette is limited to red, white, black, and gold which ties it all together. It’s very cohesive.


It’s perfect bound with 191 pages of nice, smooth paper. The cover is a heavier cardstock and both front and back are a flap style so you can unfold them to use as a sort of bookmark.

The text is very “do whatever the fuck you want” friendly. Use reversals, or not. Use your instincts, or not. There’s a nice enough blurb for each card (no thumbnails provided), along with a line or two for reversed meaning.

I’m disappointed that there are no custom spreads that come with it. The back of the book lists contributors and who did what.


Several Mijors were renamed, as well as all the suits, and court cards which “break from the gender binary”. Cool. I won’t list them all here but they seem to work rather well. I’d prefer they weren’t renamed but hey. What can ya do.

The Nine of Knives is very anxious to me but it is striking and well done. The 10 of Knives looks cool. It works. The Chariot and 6 of Knives are my least favorite. The vehicles bring a modern element which is sort of jarring to me. There are other modern bits here and there in the deck but they’re not nearly as obvious.



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So this is where it gets tricky. I have a bit of a hard time “getting” many of the images. I have to really stop and think about what I know from the RWS and translate it over. I haven’t been reading with it for a few weeks so I got rusty with it rather quickly. Would not recommend for a newbie.

Quickie Test Reading

I can’t remember the exact question I asked when I laid these cards the other day. I think it was “How do I grieve?”. I didn’t have any positions in mind. I just needed to toss some cards out.


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2 of Wands, The Tower, 8 of Cups


I’ll quote some bits from the book:
“Breathe new life into a project. Breathe fire. Let yourself be catalyzed, not inhibited, by the past, and you will flourish. Let go of what holds you back, and let the vibrant life inside you surge forward.”

“Embrace change and chaos. Light a match. Let it all burn down. Release attachment. Open to profound clarity. Align yourself with the energy of creative destruction, and welcome the winds of renewal.”

“Allow your mourning to be generative.Turn the ashes of what was into the fertile soil that welcomes what is to come. From your grief, new connections can grow – if you let them.”

I’ll just leave that there.

Final Impression

I really do love this deck. It will always be a top favorite despite the name changes and shitty cardstock. I don’t think it would appeal to most people though.



I edged it. I like how it adds to the dirty earth vibe going on.


Alter Ego Spread

I ran across the Meet Your Alter Ego tarot spread by the Daily Tarot Girl quite awhile ago. A month, maybe longer? I thought… how fun! My neglected inner-writer thought it could be a fun character building spread.

I was also thinking maybe it could help me bridge some kind of Gap of Understanding between reason and woo (because deep down inside I always think if woo was real it would be kind of cool). What if I could build an unadulterated persona (woo-sona?) to frolick in fields of comic crystal vibrations and spread rainbow bunny unicorn poop to the masses?

Or you know… Maybe I can just do the spread because I like trying spreads.

I kept putting it off. “I have to do it at the right time,” was one excuse. “I can’t decide on a deck to use!” was another excuse. I’ve never had problems choosing a deck before. So what gives?! Last night I made a note in my planner to do the spread today, no matter what. No more excuses. It looks fun and cute, why am I putting it off?

I probably could have done a spread about that.


me_irl tho

But I realized that I really was taking this way too seriously. I think it was getting all mixed up in this internal drama I’ve been having with myself about wanting to help people through tarot in a therapeutic way without being a therapist but keeping it secular and sane.

So I’m working on getting over it. I whipped out my Zombie tarot and got to work.

The Cards


forgive the cellphone pic. my nice camera is still a pain to use.

Play by Play

#1 – How the repressed parts of yourself are affecting your life – 6 of Cups

Childhood and nostalgia! The little boy here seems to have lost his hand. The girl doesn’t seem to mind. All seems to be well here…

I really do think about my past a lot. I often wonder how things would be different “if…”. I’m not too fond of my childhood. I have more negative memories than not. I don’t think I’m repressing the bad. Is it possible to repress the good? Oh. Ouch.That’s a tender spot there. Moving along!

#2, #3 and #4 – Personality traits, dreams, and issues that make up your alter ego – 2 of Hazards, 4 of Cups, The Chariot

Balance, dissatisfaction, drive? I read these three together. Seems no matter what I do, I’m not happy but I’m bound to find happiness somewhere, even if I have to just power through the crappy shit.

I’ll have to revisit this section I think.

#5 – How you can integrate your alter ego into your daily life – King of Cups

Oh ok so I’m just supposed to dive into my emotions and control them. I don’t consider myself much of an emotional person. This means my alter ego is?

#6 – How to embrace and work with your alter ego – 6 of Swords

I feel like this is telling me to travel. Maybe physically but the main point is to get out (of my head?), experience some life (different ways of thinking?), something like that.

#7 – Advice your alter ego has for you today! – Knight of Wands

Get out there! Be bold! And loud! Captain Jack Harkness pops up into my mind for some reason.

Final Thoughts

Well this was a fun little reading to do. I don’t know what more to say than that. I don’t think I’ll come up with a fleshed out character like Daily Tarot Girl’s but hey! It gave me something to think about.


Reader Review: Fables Den on Etsy


I discovered Kimberly of Fables Den last year or so on YouTube and liked her immediately. Maybe it’s because we both like the Dreaming Way tarot. Maybe it’s how genuinely excitable and down-to-earth she is while still being spiritual, or that she has some unique things to say that make her stand out from all the other card slingers out there.


She did a little contest on her channel to give away some readings and I won! Of course I didn’t think I’d win so well… I was in love with how her readings looked and they were on sale so I bought the Wonderland reading. A day or two later I found out I won and she offered me a refund for the Wonderland reading, or I could keep the free one for later. I felt like I wanted to keep one for later so we went with that.

(I’ll cover the first reading here, and maybe I’ll do another post later about the 2nd reading. I’ll include some screenshots that might be a little awkward because I don’t want to share everything.) 

This was my first professional reading and what I’d consider my first “real” reading, so I can’t compare it to other paid readings. I’ve gotten a couple little freebies online before but they weren’t too special or memorable. The last one I got was not bad, actually. But you know… kind of a big deal, my first paid tarot reading. I was a bit nervous because I didn’t exactly know what to expect but much less nervous than I felt looking at other people’s shops. Her graphics and outline in each listing are rather informative and really sparked my curiosity!

I got 11 pages total, including a sort of cover page, and a final page with a quote. It was such a beautiful presentation! She also included this bit on the cover page, which was cool:



I was only sad for a moment that she didn’t use the Dreaming Way 😉


I purchased the reading on October 29th, 2016 and she delivered the PDF on November 4th. We had exchanged a few messages over a couple days before she started the reading. She was super nice to talk to, understanding and patient with my paid-reading-newbness.



just a little selection on the first card. Isn’t the presentation lovely?


The reading for each card is a nice length. Enough to sink your teeth into. Some cards had more to them. And did I mention presentation?


This is for the 2nd card. As you can see, she goes all out. She goes into character while keeping it relevant to your reading. I don’t feel the word count was wasted using this method.

There is lots more to the PDF of course, and more than one character’s PoV.

This reading really rang true for me. It gave me something to think about (to be fair, EVERYTHING gets me thinking). It was warm, creative, fun to read, and actually helpful. Of course, it put the ball into my court and I think that’s what a good tarot reading should do.

Now… I very rarely get readings from others because I am quite happy to read for myself. I guess I was lured in by how novel her readings looked and I was curious how it would come out. Would I pay again for a reading like this? More importantly, would I pay full price? It’s hard to say. It really was a treat talking to her and getting this fun, unique bit of, I dare say, art? I do like to support indie artists. But, again… I am quite happy reading for myself.

If I ever do buy another reading from anyone, I would go to her first and be quite happy about it.

So… over 9000/10. Fables Den is wonderful and you should certainly check her out!

Tarot Lies #2: You have to be gifted your first deck

hah. I started this post months ago. I guess it’s worth finishing and putting up…

Previously on Tarot Lies, we discussed how we’re told we can’t read for ourselves. Today I’ll be ranting about another fucking lie that really gets to me: “You have to be gifted your first deck.” From what I can tell this lie isn’t spread as much as the first one. But it still makes me roll my eyes.


This deck was gifted to me in my early days of taroting, back in 2001ish.

Don’t get me wrong about gifting. It’s wonderful to give and be given a deck! And if it’s your first one, that’s fantastic! Even better if it’s a hand-me-down, something from an elder, perhaps? That is really awesome and I am jealous of people who have family members who hand their decks down. SO JELLY.

But let’s get fucking real here. If you’re afraid of buying your own deck because you think it’s bad luck, something bad will happen or whatever – you’re just being superstitious. STAHP. We don’t like superstition around here. (if you do then I apologize but you’re at the wrong blog)

I’ve done some poking around to see if there is some sort of origin behind this silly lie but I couldn’t find anything. So let’s break this down, look at it a little more logically than “DURR HURR SUPERSTITION”. (wow I’m really being a bit of a cunt now)

Gifted a First Deck


  • Free deck, yay!
  • If it came from someone you respect, that makes it special.
  • It could be a good way to get your feet wet in the hobby, especially if you’re nervous about picking your own deck (which you totally shouldn’t be!). And specially if you hadn’t really thought to try it out before.


  • This is the biggest, most detrimental con I can think of: many people would be waiting their whole lives to be given a deck and that’s just depressing.
  • You may not like the deck given to you and if you’re completely new to it, it may put you off the hobby.
  • It’s just silly. Go buy your own deck if you can.


Buying your own Deck


  • You got to pick your own deck, something that you were (hopefully) attracted to.
  • You get to be the one to break it in! Nothing wrong with receiving a used deck but it’s also nice to be the first to break in a deck. It’s clean, fresh, and crisp, and probably smells amazing and doesn’t have anybody else’s cooties on it.
  • You’re taking control of your wants and needs, which is rather powerful and very important here.
  • The process of looking for your very first deck can be so fun and educational. At the very least if you’re an art lover you can enjoy it as an art journey.


  • You just spent $15+ on something that maybe you won’t actually be into. That can be a huge chunk of money in some situations.
  • Like the last pro above, looking for your first deck can be overwhelming to some people. You may feel like you may pick the “wrong” one and that can be detrimental to your tarot future if you let it.
  • I really can’t think of any other cons. Just go buy your own deck!


Final Thoughts

I feel like the pros greatly outnumber the cons when it comes to buying your first deck. I really don’t know what else to say about it!

I think the only way this “rule” can work is if you have a family that is into this sort of stuff and you know it’s just a matter of time before you’ll receive your first deck. Like I said above, I think that kind of tradition is pretty neat if all parties involved are into it.

So tell me! Did you recieve your first deck as a gift? Tell me all about it! Did you have an interest in it before? Was it a family tradition thing? Was it random? Was it something you asked for? Tellll meeeee.


Deck Review – Quantum Tarot 2.0

This is a deck that I got shortly before moving so it ended up in storage for over a year. I didn’t think I was into it and figured I’d give it away, but I wanted to review it first. In the process of reviewing I kind of fell in love ❤


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Initial Impression

It was so long ago but I remember kind of thinking “well the art is pretty but hard to read”. It wasn’t providing me any clues to go off of intuitively so I never ended up using it. I also loved how sciency and spacy it is.


It’s my favorite kind of tarot packaging. A nice, super sturdy box with just enough room to hold the cards and the LWB.


Perfect for shuffling. Thin, as expected from a standard Lo Scarabeo deck, but not too thin.



I wholeheartedly approve.


It’s very pretty and soft? ethereal? Maybe a little too soft, in a way because there isn’t much weight to the imagery to anchor the scenes. Does that make sense?

And I’d like to quickly mention that I like the borders.


upper row favorites: heh. I’m 12 and the ace of wands looks like a wang.
lower row: the Devil here doesn’t do much for me. The rest break the whole spacey vibe of the deck.


It’s great! I love it. It has a “basic course” which includes a science related alternate name for each card (e.g. 0 The Fool – The Big Bang), a mini traditional tarot description, and a question relevant to the card (e.g. for the Fool: What journey are you ready to embark upon?) and in the next section each card has a longer, science related description. It has English

The next section is called “advanced course” and has a good size paragraph about something sciency that they’ve tried in with the card and expand on the meaning of the card.

There is English, Italian, Spanish, French, and German. However English is the only language that includes the “advanced course”.

One last thing worth mentioning is that there are 2 spreads included. They seem all right. They don’t show card positions but that’s all right. I show the results of one of the spreads below.


The cards are matte, but there is glossy embossing on every card. The frames are all embossed and then there’s always a little extra embossed.

The cards are matte, but there is glossy embossing on every card. The frames are all embossed and then there’s always a little extra embossed. Usually, it’s there to enhance something that’s already there. It sort of acts as the anchoring I spoke of as above. It’s a fairly unique feature as the only other deck I can think of that does this is the Tarot of the Silicon Dawn.

Also notable is there are 2 extra cards. I don’t use extra cards but it’s cool they were included.


the extra cards: The Phoenix and The Universe. Here I tried to capture the glossy embossing. Lovely, yes?


So I did one reading with them and feel like I need to play with them a lot to get used to the different sort of imagery. The reading I did I had to lean heavily on the book but it was a great reading.

Quickie Test Reading

I tried out the Relativity Spread. The cards are Space – where are you at the moment? Time – what will change in the near future? Gravity – what is attracting me?, and I left out the last card but it’s Relativity – key to integration.


Final Impression

I’m glad I decided to review this deck. I think I may end up using it. I do feel like I’ll be using the book as a crutch but I’ll see what happens!

I wouldn’t recommend this for a beginner but if you love science or even just the art, it could be worth grabbing at some point.

mini review – my first deck: the Goddess tarot

I often reminisce on my very first tarot deck. I have a crummy memory so I was never quite sure on which deck was my first, but I’m fairly sure it was this one: the Goddess tarot, art by Kris Walderr published by US Games in 1997.



3 of my “favorite” cards.


Fair warning: I do not have a favorable opinion of this deck!

I believe I bought this deck in 1999 at a Target. I was so curious and desperate to get started for tarot and pretty much bought the deck without getting to preview it first. I did not connect with the deck at all. It was quickly set aside and my next deck was given to me around a couple years later.

My main beef with this deck:  while the actual art is nicely executed, the color palette is just not my thing. My secondary beef is the multiple borders. There’s technically four. I think if the art took up the whole card I would be able to stomach the palette a little bit better.

Things I like about this deck: I guess the cardstock. I’ve always liked US Games’ cardstock. Oh, and the backs are pleasant enough.


An interesting thing to note is that the majors are named after goddesses. This doesn’t do much for me but it is mildly interesting. Something else to note is that the cards are wider than a standard deck.

This deck has spent 99% of its existence in storage and I haven’t missed it at all. The last few years I’ve thought about it and wondered if maybe it would grow on me. I got it back from storage last summer. lolnope! I still don’t like it. I’m ready to give it away and luckily I have someone in mind.

I’m curious about if you’ve had a deck for years and years and years, hoping that you’ll end up liking it…. what happened? Did it grow on you, or did you still not like it?

Same Spread; Different Deck Challenge

Hi everyone! I’m still alive! I’ve just been visiting my parents the last couple weeks. I still have a metric butt ton of posts hanging out ready for me to get over myself and publish them. But for now I have something really fun for me, and I hope for you. I’m sure it’s not unique but hey. Um. Here’s my take on it?

This funtime challenge will probably only be entertaining and educational and whatever to more intuitive readers and newbies. But if you go mainly By the Book I’d love to hear your results as well.

The idea is simple: Do a reading with a deck. Then grab another deck (or 2, or 3…) and lay out the same cards you got for the first reading. Post/vlog about what you discover from it. Let’s try #ssddtarot on social media as a sharing option.

(you can ignore the rest of this post for the challenge)

You may ask yourself “Why?! WHY AM I DOING THIS?!”

Calm the fuck down. I’ll tell you. Jezz.

A couple weekends ago, before I left to visit my parents, I was sitting in a cafe in Los Angeles. It’s one of the highest rated cafes my bf and I could find. The americano (my litmus) was a FUCKING JOKE. I was missing my friends and family (especially in New Orleans) more than ever. I getting the caffeine jitters off of barely passable hot bean water. Overall… I was feeling like shit.

Thankfully I had my Bohemian Gothic tarot so I break them out and lay down my Mental Check spread. I will post the results in my own response to this “challenge” but basically I was sitting there later on thinking “Hmmm. My readings are always on point. What would they be like if I used a different deck?” What really got me thinking about that was my #2 position (I’ll detail that in my response post).

I’d loooove to see your interpretation to the same spread, but different decks. It doesn’t matter how you interpret your spreads, just do it how you would normally do it. Even if it’s  some kind of combo method.

I will probably work on my response post on my train ride back to Los Angeles. But for now… let me know if this is interesting or not to you. What do you think??


Fullmoon Spread – my reading process

I wanted to do a walk-through of a typical reading for myself. I thought it would be fun to share my process, the thinking behind the cards, etc. I think I’ve done something like this before?

Maybe this will be useful for n00bs. Maybe not. Maybe it’ll provide a laugh. Maybe not! Maybe it’ll help me be less of a shit reader. I don’t know. Let me know!

The Cards


I saw some random post somewhere about full moon spreads. So I hit up Google and settled immediately on this one. I drew it up last night, took a pic to record what I got, and looked at it a little bit but today I’m really diving into it.

And what better deck to use for a full moon spread than the Bohemian Gothic? So many scenes are illuminated by moonlight!

Play by Play

#1 Things to let go of – The Devil

could you have picked anything more obvious and generic?

The devil is addiction and for this card it is super obvious. But what am I addicted to? I quit drinking caffeine (again) this year because I hated being dependent on it (we’re talking massive headaches and puking for hours if I don’t get any on time). But I recently discovered Thai iced tea and I’ve been drinking that every day for the past week or so. I’m hoping I won’t build a dependence on it.

If it’s some other addiction, I’m not sure what it would be. I am rather hooked to Reddit and YouTube. Those provide a connection to so many people and communities that I don’t feel like ditching them would be beneficial.

Or maybe the card just wants me to think of addictions in general. Maybe it wants me to shake up my routine (or lack thereof). We’ll see. Good draw, though.

#2 Things to Keep – The World

I’ve always struggled a bit with this card. I’ve always felt a definite “your world” feeling. Not the literal world, but what surrounds you.

Looking at the card in this deck doesn’t do much for me. It’s pretty but I don’t get meaning from it. It’s a lady by a stream or river and what in the world is she doing? Holding something? The leaves on the tree?

Biddy Tarot says “Completion, integration, accomplishment, travel”. OK. I can get the “completion” vibe a bit with my usual interpretation. Just not with the art.

The LWB says “what makes me feel complete”. Much more in tune with my personal meaning. But still no connection to the art!

So what I need to keep are things that make me feel complete. I’ve been putting a lot of time and money into working on my wardrobe. Being able to to put together outfits so I can look like how I’ve wanted to look for a large portion of my life is the closest to a feeling of “complete” I’ve ever had.

It gets a little more complicated than that but basically I think this card is just reminding me to stay on my path of discovering, and being, myself.

Now that I’ve sat here and let all this stew with me a bit, I feel like the art makes a little more sense. She seems so at peace and content. I think those things can come when you feel complete.

#3 Things yet to Come – Knight of Cups

I’ve always always always had a hard time with court cards! I really need to make it a life mission to figure these assholes out. The art never speaks to me. I always have to look them up. I never remember the book meaning. I can never tack on any personal meaning.

But I tried really hard to figure this one from the art and my fleeting memories of what shit in tarot means (you can’t tell I’ve been doing this for 15 years, right?): OK so we have a dude on a horse with a cup. He appears to be exiting a building. Cups are emotions, right? He’s leaving a building? So let’s just say for now this card is about emotions getting out.

interpretation via art: Things yet to come? A releasing/emerging of emotions. Right-o. I can get behind that. Except aren’t court cards supposed to specifically represent a person? OK… Maybe someone in my life will be doing the releasing to me.

Biddy says: “Romance, charm, ‘Knight in shining armour’, imagination”

interpretation via Biddy tarot: Someone romantic will come into my life. I’d love a gf so hey, that’s great news! Fat chance though.

The LWB says all sorts of things that don’t tie into the art and don’t click with me. So I’m sticking with my art intuition on this one.

#4 How the World Affects You – Eight of Swords

Traditional meaning and personal interpretation is usually easy for me on this one.

Funny though. I didn’t quite “get” the art until now. I looked closely at the card for the umpteenth time, looked at the LWB (“Feeling trapped in a situation…”) for the umpteenth time… and it clicked. I finally get the art for this deck.

Bitch, they’re just rats. You’re not trapped. Yes they’re rather large rats, but you’re not actually trapped.

So that makes this position rather obvious for me. The “world” makes me feel trapped and like I want to isolate myself. Of course I’m not actually trapped. It may suck, but I can get out of this.

#5 What to Give – Eight of Swords

I am endlessly amused about getting this card in this position. “What to give”? Here, have a card about taking.

Yeah I got nothing. Help?

#6 What to receive – Knight of Swords

Oh joy another court card. Thanks.

OK so he’s standing there. There’s a sword leaning against a table. Swords are like intellect, right? There’s a book open on the table, with a candle. I get a sense that maybe its late. Maybe he’s been up studying all night? A studious little fella. Yeah OK so uh…

OK but this is supposed to be a person. So I look at the LWB… somethingblahblah… “a leader with great energy and intelligence”. Cool, so that’s a vibe I can get with.

Stewing on this a bit… I feel like it’s telling me to receive… I don’t know how to phrase it. A sense of studiousness?

#8 What to learn – Queen of Wands

Ohhh more court cards. It’s not Christmas! Not.

I’ve been in love with this card ever since it started stalking me… around this same time last year. Hmm. I sure as fuck don’t remember what it means.

So we got a lady in a big fancy dress. She’s at some kind of ball. There are a bunch of other people there, but way in the background. Nobody is around her. Maybe they’re all looking at her? It seems she’s trying to mind her own business awhile fanning herself, but she seems to be looking back. Is she concerned about what the others think of her?

My favorite part is the black cat. I can’t decide if it’s spooked or just fluffy.

Maybe the card is telling me to not be concerned about what others think. I’ve already got that down to a science though. So what else could it mean? Maybe I -should- care, just a bit? I’ve been posting a lot of outfits over on my main blog, and on Reddit, and Instagram. I’ve noticed that I’ve gotten a shit ton more attention over my outfits on the Internet than I have anything else I’ve ever posted since I became an active Internet-goer in the mid 90s. I’ve even realized it this week.

So maybe the card says I should pay attention to people paying attention to me. Learn to care what others look like, it might be a good idea. Maybe it will bring me something I desire – some cool discussions, friends, opportunities.

Yes, I like that. It’s sounding perfect. Let’s see what the LWB says: “An attractive woman… someone passionate and sensual… ” Ehhh ok. I am recently passionate about being able to look how I want I guess.

What does Biddy say? “Quick thinker, organised, perceptive, independent”

OK. Well. There’s that.

So I liked to combine meanings and interpretations. Take everything I got from the art and add in being organized and independent.But I’m fucking exhausted by now and don’t feel like extrapolating that.

Final Thoughts

The Spread I really like this spread. In my wild fantasies I can see myself doing this every full moon. It’s going in my book of tarot spreads. If I was an organized, proactive, self-aware person I’d take the information and figure out how to apply it to my life for each month. But I am not that person.

The Deck I love this deck. I’m really getting into it. I loved it when I first saw it but of course had some problems with interpreting the art. But today I obviously had some breakthroughs.

The Reading – There’s a lot of court cards. I don’t think I’ve really cared about a strong court turn out before and I don’t know what it means. Any feedback on that would be great.

The spread also has a good chunk of swords. This is a very intellectual spread, I think. It’s not so much about material or whatnot.

I see World and Queen of Wands are facing each other. Maybe the Queen is looking a little further back than just directly at World. World was about completion and being content which was all about my wardrobe. The Queen was also related to my wardrobe. This is really highlighting something I’ve found very important to me, though I never thought in a million years I’d be in this sort of position about just clothes.

Overall – So yeah. Wow. Overall I’d say this was a pretty on-point reading. It really makes me feel more confident in my combined intuition/art interpretation/traditional/whatever reading methods. It also cemented in my mind how very important it is to write all this out. Especially on keyboard. I would have gotten writers cramp with paper and pen. Don’t get me wrong, I love the physical act of writing. I think of any excuse to write things by hand… but it’s not always practical. You may not think you’ll get much out of it but it’s really a very important process.


Tarot Altar Update: Not going that well

Hello cardslingers! I haven’t been posting a whole lot because I just keep failing at everything and don’t feel like there is much to share.

My Hot Mess Oracle and Tarot of Real projects are on the back burner for a variety of reasons excuses. I feel like I could get back to reviewing decks but I feel like I need to work with a deck a lot more than I have been. I want to give each deck a fair chance, you know?

And my tarot altar… certainly going much poorer than I anticipated. I’ve tried to enjoy the journey of putting it together but my obsession with obtaining what I see in my mind has sullied it.

BUT I do have something to show!


most of my decks!

The cube style shelf is something I got from Amazon. It has 9 sections, one in the top middle there dedicated to books, some of which are tarot related. The entire shelf isn’t a tarot-centric thing, so I won’t bother with a full shot of it.

I recently got some old stuff from storage that I hadn’t seen in 5+ years so some of that is involved here.

I had been keeping about 70% of my decks all tucked away in a closet but that was feeling kind of depressing so I lined them all up along the back there. It looks ok, I like it well enough. It’s not great. I don’t know. It’s fine for now.

You may notice the distinct lack of lovely embellished silk cloth. That’s because when I tried decorating it, it just… it didn’t work. I tried embroidering a simple border around it with my metallic thread but it just looked like shit. Like a bad kind of shit. Not the fun, touchy-tactile, hippy-boho mixed media thing that I really wanted. I didn’t even bother with the mirrors, which turned out being a bit too big overall. FML.

So instead I’m using a scarf sort of thing from storage. I’ve had this thing for quite awhile and I have always used it to mark off sacred space. So in a way it’s better than my silk cloth. It’s a little more special because my brain already has a built in association with it. It’s seen some shit, man.

From right to left: my tarot book (just spreads I love, for now), my selenite/fluorite wand, a tiny little hand carved opal skull.

My Darkstar wand, and my amethyst crystal.

The last bit on the right has my laughing Buddha. I don’t remember the circumstances around obtaining him. Maybe mid 2000s? The stone is ulexite,  given to me by a new friend this year.

The little box was given to me by a friend in the early 2000s. It has always housed my runes:


Runes have failed to capture my heart like tarot, but I’m thinking of giving it another go.

I don’t remember exactly when I got these runes but I’m pretty sure I got them off eBay. Must have been early 2000s as I don’t remember keeping anything else in that box.

The box sits on top of The Book of Runes. It was another gift from the mid 2000’s, I believe.

And I think that’s it! It looks a lot nicer than all the junk I had up there before. It’s kind of peaceful. I can’t do any large readings there but I could certainly toss out a few cards for a quick reading or to keep out to visit throughout the day. I will probably move all the tarot to one of the shelves so I have more room for junk. I’m fairly happy with it for now.

Has anybody else been working on any sorts of altars? I’d love to hear about it!